Miss Wonder

PICS OF PETS

2012-02-06T06:11:00.000-08:00

When i saw THIS, i felt very Bahagia!

Moments of Bahagia i named them.

Both of them always get together, even sleep together.

But only one will sleep and the other will 'Jaga' .

Very Cute !

Can see the right one is closing his eyes?

LOL. Even i tried to slowly snap a pic, he still can be awake and stare at me!

Okay, feizai, i know what to do.

Now, this time its Feipor's turn. The left side. While, feizai is scanning around. 360 degree.

Then, they finally get tired and decided to sleep together.

In the end, i still woke them u. How do they know?

They ust have very large invisible ears.

Now, got to Mr. Panda.

The Crazy Puppy.

Biting ppl is his hobby. Especially Mr. Pan's.

At the very least, he is still CUTE.

And sometimes obedient, provided there is food.

His third hobby is eating grass. Or sand.

(Barking is his 2nd fav.)

Bite again. Thanks to Mr. Pan generosity.

Till here i end my Pets' Pic. Not 'my' Pets actually.

I hope NOT

2012-01-30T07:09:00.000-08:00

I dun wan to separate my 2 with 0!!! They will never be together!! . . . . Honestly, im ok with turning 21. Yes. It kind of bring myself like mental state into an adult mindset. Im impressed. LOL. Anyway, as i post earlier, i really wish to do crazy stuff and memorable stuff on the first day of 21 years old. I want! How is it like being 21 years old? I have definitely grow up. Thank you my beloved families and friends! I will thank you one by one soon. WEEE

Gong Xi Fatt Chaii

2012-01-20T08:29:00.000-08:00

Gong Xi Gong Xi!! Best Wishes for all!!!

I'm Great!

2012-01-17T20:28:00.000-08:00

Life is getting interesting now. I enjoy this process very much. Thank you all! At this very last year in my degree life, i realize the stuff has started to get tougher and tougher. Very well, i love challenges. I would love to observe how am i going through all these smartly. Hahaa. Visualizing positive results is always a good way. Try it yourself (=

I wonder when will i going to be independent? When can i be independent?

What should i be

2012-01-12T08:47:00.000-08:00

I have come across this situation many many times in my life. But, this time, i am not sure, maybe because i have reached the adult line and i have responsibility for this, its kinda hard to endure. Now, i asked myself, should you be sad right now and just sobs like little girl, or you're going to be stronger?

I chose to be a stronger person and i strongly believe, once time passes and things slowly get solve, its nothing. All i need is a strong believe in myself. I will remember this moment in my life to push up myself. Well, its time to bed, goodnight.

Anyway, I'm going to be away for a short period. Class is starting next week, many things still undone. Lesson learned, again.

Love Yourself as much as You Can

2012-01-06T00:30:00.000-08:00

I am proud not to be born in a rich family because only then i know the ways to move upwards by not relying others. I know the feeling of can't fulfill my wants. I know how to get what i want by myself. Don't rely on others, believe in yourself and just d.i.y. Good things about not being rich is I'm not going to be the heir of my family company (lets say there is), yeah, its good to have company waiting for you but what if you have no interest in managing like all those drama critical parts. Even if i want,I will be the first successor to my own company, isn't it great? Crap. Anyway, remember, it maybe your destiny to be born in a poor family, BUT, you can change it, be brave to make that changes and become rich in future years. Don waste your precious time anymore!! And Rich doesn't only means you have loads of money but i can be rich when i attain my goals of happiness in my life. It depends on how you define.

Be yourself!
Have you ever thought of your future path? In my age, who is going to graduate soon, have you decided your interest? Working for a big corporation? Be an entrepreneur and start up own company? Further study? Honestly, i have thought of further my study in oversea during the first and second year of my degree. But, in recent month previously, i thought of working in a big corporate (preferably oversea) for 2-3 years then i pursue MBA in oversea. Yes, i must go overseas. Anyway, back to the point, I've done some searching these few days, i sort of decided to volunteer myself in poor development countries (Yes, oversea) right after i graduate. I have to choose between 3 major areas to choose- Health, Educational, and Social. It is in salary based, so i still counted as working. This is what i always wanted, as my end-goal to earn as much as i can for the need-help society. I used to think that i need to reach the top like having a high post in a company or succeed in my own business then i will receive high payoffs and through savings and investment by the time, I'll have a bigger reward in the end to help those who needs help. But now, why not i help them earlier where i still can, because you see, when i get all those payoff later, i do not guarantee what will happen to me then, and besides, if I'm older, like in my 30s, i will start to have family, mortgage, career or business which i am not as free as now. Right now, i don't have all these things (yes, i have family now but i have loan to pay once i work) which means i can swing off the fences freely. I have more energy and passion to help them. Well, about this plan, i will do more searching and asking advice from the elders. Because I'm taking risk and i need to take a smart and calculated risk. I just read this great post from http://jonbischke.com/2009/04/24/the-5-things-id-tell-my-21-year-old-entrepreneurial-self/ , it says- Take As Much Risk As You Can As Early In Life As You Can. Read it and if you have passion and desire to change your life, you will not regret. This post gave me to move towards my dream and support to move on confidently. My advice is get some motivational books to read everyday. It helps. My brother who is currently 18 years old, he has started to touch those financial planning books, and motivational ones last year, so do i. Just last year, i was exposed to these and very much grateful for able to plan for my life before turning 21 years old. I'm gathering and investing my time to receive big payoff in the future. I want to get what i want.

A message to my mum and dad, i know all parents think and treat their children as if they were still small, but i want to do something that as Steve Jobs said, when you wake up in the morning and you say to yourself, if I was going to do what I'm about to do today for the rest of my life, I would be insanely happy. Its insanely happy. I know what makes me insanely happy. And I understand you have good intentions in bringing what is best for me but i do not want to do what others want me to do. I love both of you so much but i hope to discover the real world out there and let me hit the wall myself, but then, i promise i will return to my home frequently as it is the only shelter for me. Parents is the one who want the best for their children. Please believe i can do it, i can be happy and safe in my way, believe that i can take care of myself. I will bear all the consequences for choices that i have made fully.

By the way, i am really into watching news at CNN, BBC, Al jazeera, and ABC News this sem break. Thanks to my International Marketing lecturer and tutor whole lot as they advice and always ask questions on current international issue and that makes me eager to know all the current news happening. Thank you Mr. Raju (is it? i'm sorry, its confusing) and Ms. Stephanie. I will just stuck in front of TV in the morning or surf their net when i can't get to watch. I must get an A for this subject although its all the bored theories in the exam but i love the title of this subject. Ah Wong (Bluemoon), a friend of mine who took International Business as his major in degree, which I'm very much envy of him because i am not approved to take this subject. Its okay. I still have my family with me now, and that's what my friends are envy of me. No offense.

I hope it helps you in any way =)

Have a Great Life ahead!

Top 21 Things to Do on Your 21st Birthday

2012-01-05T01:37:00.000-08:00

I found this very WOW!

Relax in the Morning
- Start your birthday off right first thing in the morning. 1.) Sleep in; as your eventful day goes by, you'll be grateful for the extra rest. 2.) Treat yourself to breakfast in bed. Whether you have to make it yourself, or someone makes it for you, breakfast always tastes a little bit better while you're snuggled up in bed. 3.) In fact, have a mimosa with your meal--you're finally legal.
  4.) Take a moment to reflect on the past 21 years of your life; perhaps you could write a list of 21 things you're grateful for, or 21 things you'd like to accomplish in the next 21 years. 5.) Take the rest of the morning to pamper yourself; you may want to get a professional massage.
Prepare in the Afternoon
- Many people choose to do something exciting to commemorate their 21st birthday. 6.) You could get a tattoo that symbolizes your life in some way. Or, you may choose to be extra daring. 7.) Go skydiving or take a ride on a hot air balloon. 8.) Get together with your closest friends for lunch, and plan out the night's activities. When you get back home, it's time to prepare. 9.) Pick out your outfit for the night; surely you will want to stand out from the crowd on your 21st birthday. 10.) If you're feeling extra spirited, you may choose to make yourself a tiara or an "I'm 21!" button to wear. 11.) Be sure to find a designated driver or hire a limo or car service to chauffeur you around.
Celebrate into the Night
- 12.) Start the night out right by having dinner with friends or family; you'll want to have food in your stomach before you start drinking. 13.) Celebrate by ordering yourself a special alcoholic drink at dinner. 14.) Afterward, swing by a liquor store and buy something--just because you can. 15.) Talk with your friends and try to gather up 21 different drink recipes. 16.) Try a few of these recipes tonight, but don't try them all.
  17.) Now, for the most exciting part of turning 21: go to a bar. Enjoy every moment of this night. 18.)Dance on a bar or a chair to your favorite song. 19.) Round up 21 people to toast to your birthday. 20.) Make a goal for the night: get 21 kisses or 21 phone numbers. 21.) And most importantly, capture the moments. Be sure to have someone documenting the night with a camera; you'll want to look back on these pictures tomorrow.

Though some are nearly impossible but i really wish i could do all these! Even if no one is free, i think i can go crazily by myself WEE!

Here we go

2012-01-04T05:03:00.000-08:00

HELLO!

Introducing. . . my pets! (Some partially, some not =)

Panda vs FeiZai

Panda Wins! =P

Panda Shower

Two Mr. Pan

and here is my fav out of my wishlist >.<

it is available in Jusco Ipoh

(I'm just.. saying)

Christmas atmosphere in Midvalley last year

Items no. 2 in my wishlist - Slyvester!

(available in Megamall, Midvalley)

Item no. 3 Patrick blowing bubbles! Keke

@0@

Christmas in Queensbay, Penang

Padini down there- people-jam everywhere

A bit blur pic with "biao mei"- Cousin sis (not even one year old)

Wish item no. 3!! I love Pucca! but the main point is this neck-pillow =)

(Available in Jusco, Queensbay)

Yesh, its in my wishlist too. Dome's Spaghetti WEE

Not in wishlist but ok-food in Penang- Curry Mee

Pearly- not a wish item now but in future maybe

Yup, love Penang's "Zhu cheong fan" but not wish item

Pets- Fei por and Fei Zai here

Say Cheessse. . .e

I just found this flower is a queen of all, looks more like a fork but has flower on the middle

Curry Chicken! I add ingredients and cook! HAHAHAAH

*Proud*

Anyway, i ~~FINALLY~~ managed to upload some tidbits here. There's more to come! Enjoy~

Language diferences

2011-12-30T07:13:00.000-08:00

Source: 24Dec2008Posted byBobby Hamasaki

WHEN GIVING A CUSTOMER BAD NEWS
Britons: I'm sorry, Sir, but we don't seem to have the sweater you want in
your size, but if you give me a moment, I can call the other outlets for you.
Malaysians/Singaporeans: No Stock.

RETURNING A CALL
Britons: Hello, this is John Smith. Did anyone page for me a few moments ago?
Malaysians/Singaporeans: Hello, who page?

SKING SOMEONE TO MAKE WAY
Britons: Excuse me, I'd like to get by. Would you please make way?
Malaysians/Singaporeans: S-kew me

WHEN SOMEONE OFFERS TO PAY
Britons: Hey, put your wallet away, this drink is on me.
Malaysians/Singaporeans:No-need, lah.

WHEN ASKING FOR PERMISSION
Britons: Excuse me, but do you think it would be possible for me to enter through this door?
Malaysians/Singaporeans: (pointing the door) can ar?

WHEN ENTERTAINING
Britons: Please make yourself right at home.
Malaysians/Singaporeans: Don't be shy, lah!

WHEN DOUBTING SOMEONE
Britons: I don't recall you giving me the money.
Malaysians/Singaporeans: Where got?

WHEN DECLINING AN OFFER
Britons: I'd prefer not to do that, if you don't mind.
Malaysians/Singaporeans: Don't want la...

IN DISAGREEING ON A TOPIC OF DISCUSSION
Britons: Err. Tom, I have to stop you there. I understand where you're
coming from, but I really have to disagree with what you said about the issue.
Malaysians/Singaporeans: You mad, ah?

WHEN ASKING SOMEONE TO LOWER THEIR VOICE
Britons: Excuse me, but could you please! lower your voice, I'm trying to concentrate over here.
Malaysians/Singaporeans: Shut up lah!

WHEN ASKING SOMEONE IF HE/SHE KNOWS YOU
Britons: Excuse me, but I noticed you staring at me for some time.. Do I know you?
Malaysians/Singaporeans: See what, see what?

WHEN ASSESSING A TIGHT SITUATION
Britons: We seem to be in a bit of a predicament at the moment.
Malaysians/Singaporeans: Die-lah!!

WHEN TRYING TO FIND OUT WHAT HAD HAPPENED
Britons: Will someone tell me what has just happened?
Malaysians/Singaporeans: Wat happen Why like that....

WHEN SOME ONE DID SOMETHING WRONG
Britons: This isn't the way to do it here let me show you,

Malaysians/Singaporeans: like that also don't know how to do!!!!

Quick post

2011-12-29T06:37:00.000-08:00

I will write whats in my mind now. First up, i'm so sorry for all the delays of posting pics and stuff cause of technical prob which i din fix it yet. I need to fix my bad habit too. Procrastination kills me. Secondly, i just watched Jay Chou's new MV named not end of the world like that. Then, i tot of this question, i wanna appreciate everybody i love but how do i appreciate? People always say must appreciate but the thing is how to appreciate? For example, i know i must appreciate time being together with friends, but what should i do to appreciate? By taking more pictures? Hugging friends? Say i love them? The third thing is, i always have another query in my mind since this year perhaps. I want to know the answer. I want to know the story of the other side, is it compatible with mine? I can't focus during the preparation of exam and even during my holiday because of this. I must say its because of you. Lastly, i really need to thanks my parents, esp my mum, for investing so much on me. There's a mission goin on and u guys will know when u see me but not in short term. Next up, i wanna show my wishlist, but it will be the next post cause i need pictures to show. Wahahahah! Happy New Year peeps!

im bak!

2011-12-08T06:49:00.001-08:00

Back from China yesterday and since then, my body does not suit Msia's weather as i start sneezing and coughing till today. Btw, I felt like dreaming, i have a nice amazing trip. Thanks to my parents whole lot! I will upload pictures later, in few days time, cuase currently having technical problem in uploading pics from phone. Anyway, i managed to get some. I learned a lot from this trip and i hope to share with you guys in a short while, that means next post. See ya.

This is a night scene at Shanghai town. Very eye-catching and a breathtaking one.

Goodbye

2011-11-28T21:56:00.001-08:00

Byebye. I'm here to say bye bye =)

And we will meet soon! Wee~

D to the I to the L to E to the double M and to the A

2011-11-28T01:38:00.001-08:00

Dilemma.

This word will always appear in my mind before it is settle.

"What should i do?" also often appears everyday for the past 3 weeks.

What is the right choice to make so that no one is hurt?

People around me keep telling me not to worry too much about others' matter.

Why should i bother?

Because we are friends. Close ones.

We hang out most of the time at campus.

I can choose the way where friendship won't be affected but,

i doesn't want to give up the other alternative,

because i know i will regret once i let it go.

This opportunity cost is too high,

one is friendship and

one is my future conditions (Both short and long term).

It's obvious that a normal human thinking will choose Future rather than Friends

but the consequences of losing a friend, some more good ones,

its unpredictable.

I tried to put myself into your shoes and i know how hurt it will be,

plus i have had a deep scar in my heart previously,

that's why i will understand how much the impact is.

If i were you,

i'll be stronger and prove to the the world that i can be independent

and successful as well.

You can blame me,

i know i have the responsibility for not telling this news ealier,

but if you were to blame me for leaving you behind,

i agree i do have faulty parts but remember,

you're the one who responsible in your life,

don't get too dependent on others,

put responsibility and efforts,

eventually,

you will see the fruits and beautiful flowers with it.

That's how you learn.

If you need help,

i'll be there. Seriously.

I do not know how it will turn out,

but, what i really pray is,

our friendship won't be affected.

I do really care.

Because,

F.R.I.E.N.D.S plays a strong role in my life,

I know "friends forever" is a hard-to-realize issue

but i still have faith in it.

Friends help me go though every moments.

Btw, I am listening to "Friends" sang by Rain, a nice song to listen.

There's one significant lyrics:

"Cause i'm your friend forever, don't forget."

Right now, at this stage of life,

I love to have friends,

I love my friends,

close ones, good ones, best ones, anything.

I wish the best of you.
And, i have fun yesterday
with a group of friends at Gua Tempurung.
My third visits
but, its a different experience compare to the first two.
Thank you guys!
I wish to have more memories with you all.

Lastly, i'm sorry,

for not choosing you over me.

Appreciation

2011-11-25T22:42:00.001-08:00

I'm a little pissed off when i recall what happen this morning. please allow me to spill out some water here.
Sometimes, i understand that some clever or lazy people will choose the shortcut way to get what they want, of course, its faster and easier, people might wanna be like you. Ok, fine. I have no comment cause they are clever, but, one thing, you know you cant always depend on others, and you still don't work hard, you try hard to ask help from others. You can always ask help from people, no issue, but please at least you yourself put some efforts la. If things do not go well then you blame others, is this right? Ok, i know maybe you're just so stress up already and desperately need help, and you cant control your emotion and rise up your voice to a friend. I understand. But i'm the one who get hurt. I honestly understand your feeling but this time, i think i will need you to understand my feeling, if not i doesnt know how to treat you after this. I am not a small hearted person, but this time, i need time. For those of you who is confusing out there, it was like this, today i had a midterm exam and yesterday i received tips and i send to four of my friends to spread to others. No one reply, nvm. (I did expect at least one "Thanks" reply) Then, i received another tips and i send another message to four of them again. One person reply GaYau. Then, again i receive one more tips. This time i decided not to send. Firstly, i don't wanna confuse others as the midterm has different slots and the the tips giver is from a different slot. Secondly, because i didn't feel any sense of appreciation. I'm done. And, this morning, this friend of mine plan to resit for the next slot (which is allowed) ans so i tell this friend that i will ask my fren for tips for the next slot exam and this friend raise up voice and said that its useless because the tips i gave yesterday were not accurate. I wanted so much to reply this friend but i was speaking on the phone that moment. I even sms to unknown person (tips giver's friend) for tips. Fine. I'll let it go. Remember, no one has the duty to make you happy, unless your family of course. And recently, i also learned that if you think that people will treat you as how you treat others, you will always face difficulties in life because no one has the duty to make you happy. I used to think that if i treat people kindly, i will receive the same treatment. Now, i get the meaning of real life, i don need your appreciation. But if you're close to me, you will know that i often say "thank you" even if you couldn't help me in the end. I sincerely thank them for their intention. That's enough for me. Because of this word "thank you", for people like me, it is a value. Thank you.

Who wants to get this for me?

By the time i finish typing, the "piss" is already off.

And i just check out something on FB.

Freaking happy! Thanks to my great lecturer!!

Sign out-

PICTURES

2011-11-19T06:19:00.001-08:00

Finally,

i get to upload pictures. Look at what i've gone through basically.

Or some syok sendiri pictures.

With my bro, Joon b4 he went to Spore, now he's back!

This is me when i dislike the hot weather. The look.

Tot of putting it as my profile picture on FB but looks weird.

Cute sisters taking photo! Its Lumut.

Japanese Garden at Ipoh. Anyone interested?

Same park with many lakes but it's not as good as it was.

Japanese Garden again.

Climbing mountain near Menglembu with parents =)

You heard of "Sam Poh Tong" before? Its a beauty.

So call "Puteri Lilin" (On the way to Penang)

HO CHAK!

HO CHAK!!

Marketing Society Recruitment Drive few weeks ago. Fully support ya!

Darling Karkheng's halloween make up. *RAWR*

Incredible nice awesome scene in UTAR.

Still looking pretty!

A gift from Bro =)

Bro's Gift from his best fren which cost 23 Sing Dollar

Penguin~ Chippa? Guppa? What's his name d?

End session.

Psssh. Don miss me too much *Wink*

REasons

2011-11-04T08:42:00.000-07:00

A reason is not necessary an excuse and an excuse is not a reason. LOL. Forget about it. Anyway, i am planning to fill up my schedule, future and current schedule. Make it as pack as possible. Cause i'm a bit weird, i love to be busy, or just don wanna waste time. Interesting things happen recently. Things changed, people changed and i wanted to say is that my heart hardly change. But i'm lost, i sort of confuse and having a dunno-what-to-do situation here. Well, thanks to someone, a mister, for burning my flame into a bigger one. I have stronger desire. Thank you. Btw, i really wanna post picture up here but its not available now so have to delay again. Bad habit. k la, thats for today. Smile always darling darling sekalian =)

Its me again

2011-10-27T09:27:00.000-07:00

Greetings. Finally decided to post here after 'abandon' it intentionally for 1 month plus. Well, there's always a reason behind. Anyway, i'm back to my blog in the end. Yesterday was Deepavali and i went to Penang for half day trip. Short yet fun trip. Though it was not a smooth one but i would rather call it an exciting adventure. Long time have not been to Penang (few months) and this time we went to our old favourite places for "coco zui" (its a coco drink), my aunt house (played with Pearly and Jordan), and finally Queensbay Mall. Not a favourite place but i like it being so spacey and comfortable. One problem is only with the paying ticket machine over the other side, two big areas of parking lots but only two paying machines. OMFish, que long like hell. But, i chose the short way. hahaa. Anyway, Spikey rmb you intro me the almighty Haagen Dazs? I let my bro try it and immediately fall in love with it. Hee. Then, it ended the day quite fast as i need to rush back to Kampar for meeting at 8.30pm. My dad was driving like a sports car expert driver. (Exaggerated) THANK YOU TO MY PARENTS for wanting the best of us always. Endless love.

That's my little bro, Gin. Smiling like a clown. Did i mention that my another bro, Joon, went to Singapore for O-level exam? He has been there for 2 weeks i think. Coming back in 3 more weeks. I miss my bro as much as my little bro but not as much as my mum. hahaa. Little Gin is so lonely when i'm in Kampar, cuz he's the only child in the house, without brother fighting, without sister mouth-fighting. LOL. One thing funny and made me burst out laughing non-stop is when he suddenly talk to me about the latest story in One Piece, what happen to who and suddenly got power. Hahaa! I was really shocked and stunned looking at him few seconds then laugh out loud. He has never talk, no, we have never discuss about One Piece before, i don even watch it. So i was like..in my mind, he has nobody to share his feelings on One Piece and when i am still laughing loudly, he said he was just trying to share with me. And i was like "okay.." and ask him "and then? What happen?" He said, "Don act like you know..". Really speechless now. Anyway, i will try to accompany him by staying at home more cuz people always need people to talk and share with. He is like a child with many colourful dreams for the future. I hope he will keep his dreams and succeed one day. Both of my brothers. Hahaa. Am i a good sister??

And during my sem breaks, i sort of improve my knowledge and utilize my time better than those previous sem breaks. I felt so much contented and good. My friends asked, "where did u go for ur sem breaks?" I would answer "at home most of the time". They will always say something like "not boring?" "got something to do at home?" "everyday watch drama?" etc. Actually, if u have the will, there will be tons of stuff that can be done at home. Not only online, watch tv, and entertainment stuff. I started to face books. Not the social media FB but i face the books. I read something bout the financial mmgt. I go online look for general knowledge, i know Mr.Obama's bday is on 4th of August. hahaa. Why would i need to know this? Therefore its called general knowledge, not you-must-know knowledge. Crap. Anyway, I started to gain more by reading magazines nowdays. I'm not trying to brag here but to encourage people to read more for ur own good. Not bullshit, but investing a little time now for future use. As i got to know more people, i learned that there are people who will think in the twisted way, well, they are probably born in this way but, please, THINK before u talk. How come u say such irresponsible words, even if u were joking. Its right that "time" will let you figure out a person's character. Is it too long ? I have more.

Sharon dear, about the Korean Music Wave Concert, i only get to see Park Jung Min very far away, so its like impossible to get his signature cause picture also cannot catch him properly. But that day was one of my happiest day in my life as i saw my idol in person. When Seung Ri (yougest member of BigBang) came out on the stage, i cried and shout as high as possible. He is unexpectedly amazing! GD and Top were the last performers and they received the highest applaud and cheers from the floor. Its like everyone were standing on the chairs and i was in the last row of my zone, i can see them clearly even the screen! I only rmber seeing hands and the air-sticks and light sticks. OMGD! I m happy enuf though. I will never buy any ticket for this zone anymore, i learned a lesson. I will go oversee for them next time. And people, for the sake of urself, stop spreading those negative news of my idol, don try to make jokes in front of me. As i dislike the news spreading, and every person make mistakes. Who don't? Most important is after learning the mistake, people change and get better. Let it go and have a better great life then. I will love BigBang despite whatever heaven or hell happen to them. I'm not blind btw, don tell me that my eyes are blindfolded by my idols.

Ohmy.. 4 paragraph, long enough for today. So see ya till next post. =)

"If you wan others to love you, You must love yourself first."

With Love and care,

VicQiPan

I got it!

2011-09-18T08:21:00.000-07:00

I found you! Finally after those hardship and time and endurance, I gotcha! I finally get my dream achieved before 21 years old! I'm going to see G-Dragon, Top and Seungri before 21 years old!! With extra bonus like Park Jung Min, Ukiss, Teentop, and 4 Minute!! OMGOD! Congrats me XD Hapeeee~ now this is my main motivation, i hope the day faster come and that day will get slower. Thanks my parents a lot for that! Muaak muaak!

Short update

2011-09-06T08:19:00.000-07:00

Again, i can only update briefly today. Cause i forbid myself not to online these days, as when i'm on the line, i will click and go catch up many things, so i won even on FB and others. I had fun for the past week and now its the hell-days turn. I m quite miserable now, but i believe myself i can do it! All de best people! Heading to my exam weeks! W-O-A-H-H-H !!!

PS: Oh yeah! Check it out new music on the left side! I started to like a dismissed kpop goup name SS501 ! Few songs are terrific! Few songs are just enough to like them! Love Park Jung Min the most! They are are in solo now.

See ya! =D

Outings Brief 1

2011-08-29T05:17:00.000-07:00

Hey there! I went out trice today, one with gurl gurl darlings, one with mkting fren, and one with family. I felt contented and fun as it will help me to 4get on doing something. Keep on clicking 'Crtl' to myself. CRTL CRTL CRTL. Ok, now i am. Cool, i will be updating my pictures later. Had lotsa fun today. Bro's going to Singapore tonight. Tata~

Lululu~

2011-08-28T07:06:00.000-07:00

Annyeonghaseyo~

How have you been? Vanakam~

HEE, i have spent da whole day like a worm. I'm being locked, prohibited from getting out from my house. =( Anyway, I had fun for the whole past week! and i think.. i know.. i hope.. the disaster wouldn't visit us so fast, i still wanna live long long and go to every corner in the world. Still, i must be prepared for the worst. BTW, i owe many posts, i wan to jot down every single details of my life.I love myself, my family, my friends and BIGBANG! Bwahahahaa! i'm goin crazy! Entrepreneurship coursework mark is not release! Can u let me die faster??

PS: Rules made are dead but people is alive, we can always change the dead rules, can u?

Delay

2011-08-21T09:49:00.000-07:00

I wish to blog about today so much but i guess its a delay again.. Lets hope i an fulfill my wish tomorrow.

I really wish what i dream of yesterday will come true or at least let me continue the dream tonight and the night after and forever. =)

Wednesday Holiday!

2011-08-17T00:25:00.000-07:00

3 "Lazy-days" passed, what's next??

Tamil~ Needa memorize and get familiar and able to have smooth conversation with sir. These days, i have enough rest. I rest enough and i can prepare for whatever ahead. Had a great time spending with Kas and Kheng on Saturday and with fellow friends at Taiping on Sunday. Now, it time to move on !

~~PS: I Don Wan To Leave My Home!!!!!~~

Anyway,

I learned this:

"A mistake is simply another way of doing things. "
Katharine Graham

WEEEEE

2011-08-11T11:37:00.000-07:00

I have just finished (not edited) my last assignments!! Three days of effort and time~ 3 days before the due date we were asked to change our title of assignment, if not surely fail. So, these days, my life is just equal to the workaholic lifestyle. Taataa~

Little surprise Big Attack!

2011-08-10T11:04:00.000-07:00

Dear Mr. Wong,

yesterday you gave me a BIG Huge Massive attack and there was once i tot i am dead. Its okay, at least i know what to do to survive. Today, you gave me sweets and jokes, its like after the hell adventure immediately move to heaven adventure. Anyway, your help and support are very appreciated! Thank you! Now i'm moving forward to success and to impress you hard hard!

I mean my assignment anyway =)

Saturday

2011-08-07T06:05:00.000-07:00

Busy still went out gai gai de Saturday

Four of us went to Jusco by BUS

Long time no sit de bus,

i was walking to the bus stand near my house,

long way to go plus under hot sun!

My walking journey..

I was taking my time walking to the station which is quite far away,

sambil taking pictures and out of sudden

i received a msg from my fren on the bus saying that they are going to reach the staion.

At that freakin moment,

i can only run like no other business

cause i don wan to wait for another bus.

Sometimes, i am just being too optimistic.

But luckily,

the kind bus driver let me in when he was trying to move on.

Thank you nice driver =)

Amy and Manchyi jie jie

On the way to Medan Kid

I finally know the way to reach Jusco by bus WEE

You need to sit on the blue city bus and it cost RM2.

i din get to capture any pic in Jusco so the below pic is when we were waiting the blue bus back to Medan Kid for the Pink Kinta bus.

Ohh and i get to watch the "Rise of the planet of the Apes",

it was a good one and memorable.

but bcuz i think Apes are a bit scary when they are adults so..

In the end, i had a great day spending with friends at Ipoh on Saturday.

Wee~

(Headache now, many stuff not done and not touch)

Anyway, yday i did nothing, practically, so does today.

I tried this new software downloaded in my mum's phone and i took some picture and its amazing!

The sketch version:

1980's mode

And,

Japanese photo mode

All sleepy look =)

See ya!

Thursday

2011-08-04T02:22:00.000-07:00

Today is Thursday of week 10 d!! Time pass like the speed of light. I just finished my Tamil test and Entrepreneurship presentation, one more presentation to go tomorrow. Wee~ Tired. I really need to strangle myself hard hard. How come u never change har Pan ViQi! I don wan bad practice and sleep late anymore, bad for health and skin. Totally dislike! When i get to sleep at 12am this Tuesday, i was really excited and congrats myself for being on the bed early. That's my early. See? That's why people have been asking these few weeks, whether i've not enuf sleep, or am i sick or i look super pale. Its the continuous of bad sleeping habit for few weeks caused me look like a zombie. Anyway, yesterday, I watched my friends' guitar performance at class, and all of them are superb, cause i cant do that. Music is always amazing.

Practicing before performance

Performance time

Another team's performance

Then, i went to watch fren's football match! Hee. Learn a lot and see a lot!

Good job guys! =)

The imagery view is just so nice behind there..

The black shirt was the referee, cant-run-much de referee

I met Siaobao yday, finally met her at Kampar!

Then, straight away she realize my contact lens, she is the quickest identifier cause most of frens need to be told only they 'ohh~'

Gonna catch the bus to campus now, tata!

Ramdom, Yesterday, Today Pica

2011-08-02T02:05:00.000-07:00

Ramdom,

Kheng's moral campaign pica~

Old old fren but young young look ^^

France cover bubble tea!

New Bubble Tea shop opened near my house.

Kaiyen, heeheaheai~

Clever Bubu ~ Clever than my Baby

Long time din see my brothers? Have a quick look =)

Yesterday,

Emm.. This was taken after my presentation for oral communication.

I have very cute group members, all of them are so cute.

Their presentation made people laugh and i'm proud of them.

Mr Alan^^

Mr. WeiKhang~ Love "Booming" idea de boss!

Mr. Sean, very cute guy

Today,

My frens had this workshop, what we called a conflict workshop,

we played games at Block B (The place where i miss a lot!)

Tearing newspaper for one part of the game

Somebody was chosen to be the blind folded person

under the hot sun = crazy

Later i also end up joining a game which was under the hot sun also.

I'm crazy. Sweat like hell man.

Kaiyen and himmui

"cannot-see" Siaoyee and Director Heakee

That's all for today, i've posted twice today. Kinda fed up with something which i am searching for past few hours so i thought posting pictures would be better. Release anger. =D

这样的女孩、你会爱上吗？

2011-08-01T23:12:00.000-07:00

她其实有点懒　喜欢赖床
她其实不太乖　喜欢捣蛋

她在陌生人面前会很安静很冷漠
在熟人面前却很放肆很霸道
并喜欢没形象的哈哈大笑
不要认为她很粗鲁
她只是很单纯的认为
大家打打闹闹骂骂笑笑
表示更亲切更不分你我

她独立也好强
她宁愿忍受太多的寂寞和痛苦
也不愿意向别人提起她
也会偶尔的忧郁朋友问她怎么了
她也只会说没事

其实……
她只是感觉累了
她只是需要一个拥抱
其实骨子里渴望有一个避风港湾
让她去依靠
但她不会承认

她必须确定
那个人是否可以承受得了这一切
承受她的撒娇　
她的无理取闹她的倔强　
她的悲观她所有的性格缺陷
且永远不离不弃

只有这样
她才放心放心
去继续做自己
不会害怕有一天将要面对失去

如果没有那么
她只好继续寂寞和孤独
她对爱情没有安全感
也不会给别人安全感
她爱不起更怕伤害

她失恋的时候
会在别人面前
装的很好大声的笑　
放声的闹当姐妹心疼的说：“你没事吧?”
她会放下她所有的骄傲
趴到姐妹怀里
哭哭完了苦笑一声：
“没想到我还会为一个男人哭”

她从来不会在情人面前大声哭泣
除非她真的崩溃了
即使在你爱着她的时候
她也会胡思乱想让自己悲伤
如果你看到她的眼泪
请相信这绝不是她在博取同情
这是内心骄傲的女子不得己的场景

她想对你负责
同时也希望你对她负责
对自己的过去和未来负责
但请你不要轻易给她承诺和誓言
她很难相信
即使她很难相信
但她还是会选择等待

若她喜欢上你
请你不要在她的世界里消失
她没有更多的要求
不会打扰你的生活
她只是想静静的看着你
当你的观众
仅此而已

她的伤初始浓烈似酒
很快就会变为一杯水
却让水渗入生活成为点点滴滴
她选择在其中淡定
在其中沉默和内伤

她就是这样强势　
霸道　任性
不会讨人欢心
死要面子
她爱朋友多过你

她善变
最耐不住寂寞
却又喜欢假惺惺的
让自己一个人呆着

有时候她又充满阳光的气息
爱笑爱说话
活蹦乱跳　可爱迷人
她很自私
只愿意与人同甘
不愿意让别人跟她共苦

她习惯在人前表现的很坚强
一副大女子主义的模样
她会想
遇到真正懂她爱她宠她的人
她就一定会很安静
心甘情愿的安静下来
不烦不闹
按时吃饭睡觉按时做一切
能安心和他一起做的事情

她从不轻言爱
她的爱很沉默
那并非是因为她缺少那份勇气
在她的心里有一道栅栏那就是自尊
她看得比生命更尊贵的自尊
她会在真正爱她的人面前
卸掉所有的盔甲和伪装
做个幸福的小女人

她不要求你要做什么
不会无理取闹要你陪着她
她有自己的生活
她给你空间
因为她也需要空间

她在你面前永远性感调皮
偶尔撒撒娇
跟你玩陌生人的游戏
在你的朋友面前从来大方得体
微笑的依偎在你身边

她不让你给她买这买那
但是心里却会为你私自买给她的礼物
而暗自开心
因为女人觉得那是你的宠爱

她在意的是你的心
你若真心
她必然实意
最起码
你表现的真心
能让她感觉得到

这样的她
只有懂她的人才会得到她的好
如果你没有绝对的真心
请别爱她
因为她最怕没安全感
害怕失去平衡

(Don't you think its familiar?)

Awake

2011-07-31T12:49:00.000-07:00

I dun really know what happen recently,

even i know, i did not and don want to know too much,

cause,

seriously,

its better to not know anything at all,

ur life would be better.

I listened,

i agreed,

i have no reaction,

any reaction given by me,

intentionally or unintentionally

will be interpreted either correctly or the other way round.

Just one piece of advise,

any doubt and question in ur mind,

pls go directly to the source which u got the question,

ask and get urself clear,

don spread ur own thoughts which are not been clarified

to others ,

ended up no where,

ended up, somebody will get hurt deeper.

Sometimes or most of the times,

there are all misunderstanding.

I understand, sometimes,

it is really hard to say it out,

but if u're a good fren and u're clever,

u shud noe the way to do it.

I did not handle it well,

i'm sorry for that.

These cases are really common in this world,

i just pass thru it and,

i'm glad that i learned from this lesson.

If somebody stop the rumours from flowing,

stop adding flavours,

speak right according to the situation,

think of the consequences before speaking, and

listen to others more,

The world would be better.

Very mush easier. Simpler.

Sometimes, its even better if u ignore the right thing.

I hope everybody will grow up and learn through this lesson.

I don want to see anybody hurting anybody anymore.

If u're my fren, only i'll care.

I love my friends a lot.

*Hugs*

-Sun will always rise in the early morning-

I got shocked of some messages from a good friend, i love her and i recall the pain i received previously. She would have received more pain but gain also i believe. I learned and i grow, i hope, this will be a great turning point in ur life to make urself better in life. Bright future ahead you my dear.

Friends are the one who help when one needed, but not to doubt each other and watch them fall.

Its not as serious as what u read, hee, i just express what i think, and what i did not tell others when i think they need to know. Little polish will make our life more interesting and more meaningful. =D (more clean)

Long time no see.

My sorpo yet simple pic.

hee

2011-07-30T09:09:00.000-07:00

Heyhey! nice to meet u ~

I've started to achieve my goals i've set for this semester.

To join more co-curricular activities. Right before the sem starts, i became the helper for RCM. This was my starting point. Then, i started to pay attention to any events or activities which i can join. And, thanks a lot to my beloved friends, ive got some opportunities to get involve and know more. Now, i will try my best and do my best to manage it well and coordinate with my studies. I always wanted to become a busy person. Then only i will feel contented and it will help me overcome my barrier. My weakness. I must break my own wall and HEEHEE. I can do it right?

Fellow friends,

I did not update since ages and i'm so sorry for that. My life is basically the same and i've pass thru da spot where i had depression last sem, YIPPEE! I am really happy and glad to have friends and groupmates beside me when i need help the most! THANK YOU LOTS!! Really love you all whole lot, very dai sek ar!!

"I understand that people have different thinking,
but the most important common thing that we both have is that
we love each other,
and that is enough. "

一位年轻女董事长的忠告：不想穷下去就请看

2011-07-12T00:09:00.000-07:00

(Copied from FB and these are my selected favourites)

1、记住，平均每天看电视超过三个小时以上的，一定都是那些月收入不超过两千元的，如果你想要月收入超过两千，请不要把时间浪费在电视上。同样的道理，那些平均每天玩网络游戏或聊天超过三个小时以上的，也都是那些月收入不超过两千的。

4、如果，你真的爱你的爸妈，爱你的女朋友，就好好的去奋斗，去拼搏吧，这样，你才有能力，有经济条件，有自由时间，去陪他们，去好好爱他们。 (Like*)

14、不要随便说脏话，这会让别人觉得你没涵养，不大愿意和你交往。即使交往，也是敷衍。因为他内心认定你素质很差。 (Strongly agree!)

19、如果你不是歌手，不是画家，也不是玩行为艺术的，那么，请在平时注意你的衣着。现在这个社会，衣着能表现出你属于哪一个群体，哪一个圈子。 O.O

24、如果你想知道自己将来的年收入如何。找你最经常来往的六个朋友，把他们的年收入加起来，除以六，就差不多是你的了。这个例子，可以充分的说明一点，物以类聚。 (wao)

25、给自己定一个五年的目标，然后，把它分解成一年一年，半年半年的，三个月的，一个月的。这样，你才能找到自己的目标和方向。(Strongly recommended)

6，不喜欢的人少接触，但别在背后说坏话，说是非之人，必定是是非之人，谨记，祸从口出。(totally LIKE*)

13，空闲时间不要经常上网做无聊的事和玩一些没有意义的游戏，读点文学作品，学习一些经营流程，管理规范，国际时事，法律常识。这能保证你在任何聚会都有谈资。(hmm..)

16，头发，指甲，胡子，打理好。社会是个排斥性的接受体，这个星球所需要的艺术家极其有限，请不要冒这个险，就算你留长头发比较好看，也要尽量给人干净的感觉。(Cut my nails immediately)

18，力求上进的人，不要总想着靠谁谁，人都是自私的，自己才是最靠得住的人。(!!!)

19，面对失败，不要太计较，天将降大任于斯人也，必先苦其心志，劳其筋骨，饿起体肤……但要学会自责，找到原因，且改掉坏习惯。二十岁没钱，那很正常；三十岁没钱，可能是没有好的家境，需要更大的努力；四十岁没钱，只能自己找原因。穷人变成富人是可能的，而且很可能。穷人能穷一辈子，也是必然的，存在就是理由，只是有所选择。

20，每个人都有成功的机会！就看你给不给自己机会！(5 star rate)

Nice to see u again =)

2011-07-11T23:52:00.000-07:00

Being at home is always the best, especially after a long journey of fights and sweats. This week i finally stay in my home for 4 days, as previous weeks i just stayed for 2 days, well for some of u, it could be better than none right. Many people told me about being so lucky that my house is just so near to the hostel and campus, i can travel back in just 20 minutes. Sometimes, i felt that its better to study at somewhere far away from home, the further the better, then i will really learn how to be independent. But, human being is always conflicting within itself. Now i will say that i'm lucky to study in Kampar as i know the importance now.. =) Just sharing.

How are you doing? Fine?

I hope even u did face some high walls throughout ur path blocking u from moving on, you will just climb over the wall, no matter how high is it. Remember, the more challenges u faced, the more experience u will gain, the 'richer' u are. These experiences will stack up and help u achieve a higher level than others, then, in future, when u face similar or any situation, u will know what to do and how to overcome it. Because u have the experiences. You have what others don have. Say for example, myself, i have been scolded by a tutor before, on the pathway, where there were many third parties, i still can recall every details of that moment, that time, i forced myself to keep smiling to her when she was scolding. But in return, i gain some important points for my assignments, its worth it. It was my first time in uni life getting scolded, and straight away after the incident, i went to toilet and release my emotion, hahaa, i cried. But, i know, this is what i always wanted, i want more experience, i want to encounter all these for my own sake. Seriously, i am glad that this happen to me because if the same thing happen again, at least i will feel less painful. That's what i think. Same goes to all 'bad' incidents which i have encountered. Those were lessons for me to learn and endure. Those are all good stuff in my life. Hee.

The other thing, i sort of decided my future direction few hours ago, during a lecture class. Its totally different from the course i'm taking today. Different area of study. Just now i wonder, should i just stop right away and choose the one i want now? Or i wait till finish my degree and continue with what i want in master? Is it possible? But for now, i need to concentrate on my exam which fall on tomorrow and assignments first. Many to be done these days. All the best people! Go for what u want. SMILE. =D

Happy busy July!!

2011-07-02T05:52:00.000-07:00

Recently i m very happy with most of the things happening around. Except for my dream of going to Korea for study tour or student exchange vanished. Hee. I still have chances right? If i missed you, will i still get u back?

And i found out something,

my friends around me, i found out that although they are adult, but sometimes, they are still kiddies, which i find them very cute and very pure like children. Keep it up and don change ar! Btw, although recently, my sleeping time is down to 3-4 hours but i'm still happy. Thanks handsome and beauty!! =D

Are u aware that i'm peeking on u? LOL. Don perasan.

PS: i forgot my password to get access to Utar portal AGAIN! Ishh.

Happy start but sad ending

2011-06-25T23:39:00.000-07:00

Sunrise of a day.

Yesterday, full of hope preparing to go to campus as i heard the soft skill program that i was going to attend is full of fun and not dead as others. Totally excited also because its my first time having so many friends joining a soft skill program together. Drove to campus and nyaris late to the venue. After I saw many people attending this called "Take Charge!" program, it increases my excitement somemore. Throughout the process, as expected, i had so much fun and the speaker, Mr. Rizal is really a great entertainer with loads of experiences. I am Impressed. Thank you for your efforts and advice on me! You will not know that ur words might have change my life after then =) I am really glad to hear that. Hee.

After i reached my home around 5.30pm, i started to surf the net and i found out something which shaken my heart very much.

...

Its in the evening.

I m terribly sorry for knowing this news this late. Daesung (Bigbang members) was involved in a traffic accident which happen on 31st of May and i only found out yesterday, 25th of June!! The investigation report state that 'it is the negligence of Daesung which caused the death of Mr. Hyun in the accident.' Understand? Its kinda complicated accidents but he happened to knock a motorcyclist called Hyun on the road and Hyun is dead. Previously police were investigating whether Hyun died b4 Daesung's clash but the report says its on Daesung's fault. Daesung is very depressed till today from what i read. Awww. Why la this thing can happen to Daesung? I m sorry for Daesung and the deceased. Just pray that time will wash this away slowly, be strong Daesung!!!!!!!!

So, in the end i had a mix feeling of good and bad.

I just finished watching a drama called "49 Days". Yep, korean drama. A very special drama about life and death. I strong recommend it so that we appreciate people around us and we would spend a day as if our last day in life. First episode might be a bit boring but from second episode onwards, it is very interesting and totally new storyline.

And finally, i had dinner with my family plus grandpa and aunt at Ipoh. It felt great. Long time din spend time eating with grandpa d. Hope he can live long long enuf until my child grow up. Its called cucu-cicit banyak banyak. And to one of my fren (dailou), Stay Strong too! Everything is good when we are still alive, problems can be solved.

What i learn yesterday from Mr. Rizal is "Every problem has a solution, Every solution begins with me!" Stop talking about the problem but talk on the solutions. If it cant be solved, use another solutions until it is solve. When u hesitate in making a move, u ask urself, "What is stopping u?" Stop banggau-ing! Don give useless excuses because life is full of choices! so.. CHOOSE-LAH! Take charge of ur own life! Rizal taught us how build a good relations with people and make people like you. Many techniques available. So, if u have time, do register for the course, the next session is on week 10 i think. Why don give it a try?

In the end of the course, we were asked to state what changes in myself do i want to make.

The changes i want to make in myself is DARE TO DO AS WHAT MY HEART SAYS.

Final point is, i really want to thank SPIKEY LIM YEE SIANG for helping me while he was practically tired. Sorry for troubling u my fren, THANK U lots ya!! Appreciate and will always keep in my heart. LOL. For u, it might not be a big deal but for me, as i was really desperate for help , so you see. =D

There is another person who i wanna pay my appreciation to, my dear kaofu, for being so nice and caring to anyone including me. Thank you for ur help always! Its like almost everytime i got problem i will find u, so mafan u la. Happiness also will find u de. HEE. I still owe you many sweets right? U slow slow wait ba. XP

Karkheng a, ur sick ok d? Looks like u're bak to healthy d. But inner side i not sure la, hahaa. Thanks for ur advice on everything also. U're one of my sifu u know that right? I wish u will have a very contended life with ur darling and family yah. Friends also! =)))

Kasturi, how are you? I m really sorry for not being with u all these while. Since i moved to Kampar, we hardly call each other d. You promise me you will get better ga! Hope to see u soon! :DD

Muahh!

And few people who i really care for them but i don think they will get to read this, so, lets delay it till ur birthday kay? Appreciate everyone's love and care all this while. Live life to the fullest! XDDD

Feelings

2011-06-19T09:16:00.000-07:00

Sorry guys, long time no see. I just feel like blogging today.

Feelings is today's topic. Feelings means inner thoughts deep inside your heart right? I just wanna remind people out there, what you see is not what you think, understand? Hahaa. I might have done something over the line but only i myself know my real intention. And only i myself understand what previous sentence means. Recently, or last week since Wednesday onwards, my mood and emotions have been changing in a very weird way, some of my friends noticed that and asked me if i were ok, some said i've turn into a bad girl (in a joking way), some treated me better. Well, if u notice something, when u ask me if i were ok, i would nod my head at first and answer yes, but two seconds later, i would slowly swing my head a little bit. It means "i-don-noe-if-i-were-ok-or-not". Or it could just mean "i-am-not-ok". LOL. Some incidents went thru me and i've solved it, thanks to a great talker and friends that worried about me. I know i cant treat people coldly because its not their fault but i cant control myself. When i'm happy means happy, sad means sad, tired shows tired face, no acting stuff for me. (there is always an exception though) I admit i kinda changed a bit cause i know i cant be a naive and aimless girl which can be easily use by others who had bad intention ( I HATE those users), so i tend to twist some of my cells and nerve. Of course, its not that i will change into a total big evil monster or something but just a better me. Its call improving myself, so i told one of my friend that i m actually undergoing a "growing process" where these days would be a critical moment for me. I am telling this because i don wan others to like..sort of misunderstand my behavior lately. HEE. Happy DAD's day!! XD

I am learning Korea language these days and i m enjoying it very much. Even abandon all my duty for it, or you could just say i'm only interested in korea language yet i'm lazy for the other non-interested works. And, I lost my bottle again! My very new one! Only get to sayang it for about 5 days. Nomul asipta. Anyway, I am having a very interesting class tomorrow! Wish me luck ! =D

Wish fulfilled

2011-06-07T10:13:00.000-07:00

Hi guys! These days have been an incredible moment for me. Family and friends play the vital role for these. Friends' birthday are coming one by one, its like birthday seasons know, anyway, i enjoyed all the celebrations so far. Talk about birthday celebrations, i have a super deep question mark which i don dare to say it out but it keeps troubling me wen i celebrate for frens' birthday. It disturb and triggers my emotion for few months. Argh. I wish i could tell somebody about this! Recently, i manage to get in contact with foundation's close frens, somehow, our interactions become more and more and i m lovin' it cuz its like we are not not connected anymore, we get to know each other's latest news. Hee. Must maintain ah! And fyi, my luck is getting better! I tend to meet lots ppl who i would like to meet since forever. =D

Wee Wee

2011-05-24T07:17:00.000-07:00

Still in the holiday period but i went back to Utar since yesterday. Not staying there but has been there from 7am till 3.30pm on Monday. Then, today i stayed till around 7pm. What m i doing? I am a helper for may intake orientation, so if u happen to register for degree and foundation at heritage hall, u will see me. I was standing in front of the hall, instructed to request and direct students into the hall. Hee. These experience is extremely precious to me. Cause i can hardly join this event and somehow 'god' send somebody to give me this opportunity and i get to noe more about 'what-i-shud-know'. And this is what i call fun. Indeed, i met some old schoolmates like Khar yee and Lee Sing, then somebody like Kuokang!! Hee. Well, thank god and sky and everything who gave me this golden opportunity cause i haven met them for 2 years. And, new known friends, other helpers and committee members, and also new students. I am amazed by somebody and i truly admire them, in terms of their skills and talent and yes, i need to develop it myself too. Totally new direction for me. Thank you guys! Tomorrow i will have to stay back a little bit later than today but its the last day for us, we are called- Register, C.. (I forgot stands for what), Mass call, aka RCM. The big group is called the orientation helpers i suppose.

-lloll-

2011-05-21T07:48:00.000-07:00

Holiday Pica: (Very Random)

KL- Subang:

Sunway Lagoon

Penang:

Langkawi:

Now i m back to Perak. Happy days always fly as we all know. I hope i will have more chances to spend time with you all. Really appreciate everything cause i learned and i m contented. I know how things actually goes and not in my little world anymore, its a bit deep you see. Anyway, continue enjoying my free time and have a great time people. Lastly, I m sorry that i m stupid, childish, and naive. Sorry Pan Vic Qi.

Him or Her

2011-05-09T22:28:00.000-07:00

If you love someone be brave to tell her that you love her but if you don't, then be brave to see her being loved by someone else and pray the best for her.

Copied from one's Fb status

Not Without You

2011-05-09T02:00:00.000-07:00

Its the title of my new added song, sang by Jay Park.

Well, something troubles me recently, its a small matter, but it troubles me. I am still figuring out whether to follow my brain or my heart I have decided to follow what my heart wants earlier, but, i saw something and i m thinking of changing now. Arrh, i always have hard time making a decision. Lets see how it goes. I am curious too.

After this Wednesday, i'll be super duper excited and have a totally relax mode! Anticipating holidays!! Cause i m really tired of these days life as i don like to stay at da same spot for a long time. Sometimes, I don understand myself also. I am totally a bad girl. That's the conclusion. =)

Journey back home

2011-05-03T23:59:00.000-07:00

Finished my second paper and on the way back home.

Enjoy the view. Love the sky the most!

Yep, sambil drive sambil snap pic =)

I don know where is it.. ah, before Jeram.

After Jeram.

Around somewhere..

Reach Gopeng d.

The Lamp post model.

The Lamp post model 2.

Gopeng bus station

Turn into a path.

And turn, turn, turn.

Reached! Hee. Now continue the journey of study ba. Just don give up because no matter how long it takes it will reach. Don stop during the journey as you will never reach the destination. Once you're tired, take a rest, look around and continue moving till the end. =D

Ipoh XD

2011-05-01T00:41:00.000-07:00

Right after i finished my EFM exam yesterday, i joined my friends straight away and went to Ipoh. I drove from Kampar to Ipoh!! And i drove back to Gopeng alone but very challenging! I would like to have second experience soon. =) We went to Jusco and had a really great day, eating, watching movie, choosing clothes for friends. All these are really fun, because after few days of "studied-hard" at home, i finally get to spend time with friends. One thing i really hope my mum will understand is that my life is not about just studying, it includes more. Well, she got her points too. Anyway, i am happy to finally have the experience of driving with frens to Ipoh (it was my wish earlier), now, i did it! Hee. Bahagia me. =D And the movie we watched is called "Thor", its a great movie, high above my expectation. Besides, i get to meet Kasturi at Jusco also, wee~ Seeing my uni friends interact with my secondary friend, that feeling is incredible. Continue "Study hard" VICQIPAN!!!

PS: Normally, if i felt stress, my forehead will start to have small little pimples but today when i woke up, they are gone! Isn't it great to relax a while during examination period? But, please, control urself, if u don know how to control, better don relax at all, advice for myself too. =X

Back!

2011-04-27T10:16:00.000-07:00

I m here to say dat i m still alive out of nowhere. =D

I did a 5 minutes color quiz earlier and it says my current situation as below:

"Outgoing but unpredictable and unstable.

Likes things to go her way,

otherwise she becomes agitated, indecisive,

and fake in her activities.".

Then, my stress source is like this

"His normal flexible and stubborn attitude has become weakened

because she feels overworked,

tired and as if she is stuck in a rut.

The situation seems helpless and

is causing her to physically feel the strain,

she is searching for a solution

but she is unable to make a decision on

how to go about making the changes."

One of my Restrained characteristics:

"Current situation is leaving her doubtful and cautions

about becoming intimately involved with others." (Which is true)

And so on. I did not want others to know bout these inner thoughts of mine usually, but somehow, i want people to know but selectively. Well, things have been going quite so-so recently, i am having a study week right now and going to have first exam on this Saturday. These days, of course is very flexible and enjoyable (need to think twice about this) and i m trying to balance out myself with studies and entertainments. Studies is suppose to exceed entertainments but i am afraid, now, it is in a reverse situation. Normal situation? But i don want. Neither i wan being stress out nor lazy. Anyway, just a normal atmosphere during study week. I have my family with me but with usual conflicts. I can say i love my life but just ~~not satisfy~~ with it. It can be better.

Okay, deal with that matter. Uhm, i was in dilemma not far ago but i decided to give up both options and continue the old-way which i thought is the best solution. On the other side, recently, my friends have been discussing on "friends" matter, about leaving apart after graduation, which is one year plus later, then, going to do what and wouldn't have chance to meet each other or hardly have the chance so grab it now. These sort of talking seems like a trend currently (few days only). And, i was quite astonished to hear such content as i never thought about our life after graduation (bcause next year is 2012, nahh, joking). Now, i think bout it, imagine, us separating to different paths and not contacting each other? Its hard! But i've had these experience many times since i left my kinder garden, then primary schools, secondary till now. All contacts cut, cut, cut! Even my best friends from primary or from my hometown- Gopeng. Kerry Saw and A Yong! Where are u? (Though i can still know their recent activities from FB) Still, we do no contact directly! This is a matter. I have close friends and buddies right now and one year plus later we wont be seeing each other? It depends on our will right, but sooner or later, as time goes by, for sure, the number will be reduced to less than one, means nobody. But for my case, i don believe it, i will have at least two persons left, or three! Hee.

One fren of mine, Maggie Yip, had her birthday i think two days ago. I admired her way of dealing with friends and things, i have this impression of her is a powerful superwoman! Serious, her charisma is not joking. And her personality is nice! Her ambition and future thoughts are almost or exactly like mine but she has more potential on achieving it. Did i mention before my real ambition? Of being a great success women in the society who contributes in terms of anything and most importantly, being someone who did not need to depend on man for anything. That's my mission or vision, whatever is it. Success doesn't mean earn $$$ only but also gain =)))) Don misinterpret me as a very $$$-lover. In fact, i am a =)))))-lover!

Type a lot today huh. Just for sharing. I have slept a lot this evening so i have the energy to stay up late.Bless everyone to get and do what they desire and me too!

Week 12 already

2011-04-08T06:18:00.000-07:00

Moral campaign is over, still left efm presentation cause my presentation is postponed. Talk about my moral campaign, yesterday, i was not satisfied with my performance but today when i rewind all my memories, it was a great one! I enjoyed it very much, i love the way everyone help each other. Anyway, overall is good but i almost ruined the show in the beginning but i did my best later. Thanks everybody for their effort, especially to my MC partner, Kenny Ho! He cover me up many times, luckily he's there. Just a short notice to thank everybody who came over and support and gave comments. I received two different comments from different sides, so my feelings should be neutral but because sir says MC is good and he smiled to me few times when i am speaking in front, i turn out to be happy (= Check out the photos in Facebook which i am tagged in, some are really not presentable, i mean myself, my look. Anyway i hope to have more chances doing this event in my uni life, it's really fun, time passed super fast also. During the campaign, most of the time, i was worrying, thinking of how to do better and control myself, and getting near the end, i finally can laugh as loud as i can, as the last drama group members did a very good job in entertaining people. I am really impressed by their talents. Lastly, I wanted to say sorry for my mistakes, sorry guys. On the other hand, i just started to discover something which surprises me a lot. Anyway, after a tiring week, everything must be left behind and prepare my final d. All de best everyone!

Update update

2011-04-03T06:13:00.000-07:00

Everyone of you is invited to 'Kempen Diskriminasi'at Utar's Block I Hall IDK2 from 1.30pm to 4.00pm this Thursday 7/4/2011. Please come for those who are free. You can enjoy many special events on discrimination in different kind of acts, we have Press Conference, Talkshow, Drama and debate somemore. One thing is we speak in malay but it will be funny cause we speak malay as we don really know it well. See how i have changed, see how did i manage myself and i really want to see familiar faces then we take pictures together kay? Promise and do come yah. This is my one and only moral campaign in my degree and if 2012 really happen den u won have chance to see me doing this in the future d. Of course i will do my best to make it interesting and even break my image as usual, so take ur time to pass by. If u are not that free just take a seat a while and then leave is okay, at least better than absent. Hee. Take care people. These days till Thursday will be hectic days for me, but karkheng and kingkong can and must find me, jom makan! Anyway, i spent my Sunday at Kampar and its my first time i think, not bad, helping the artwork for the campaign, actually i din help out much but just donno why i spent whole afternoon there. And rmb? I am the female emcee arr!! Support me!! =D

PS: I am going to invite a stranger to the campaign if i get to meet that stranger on Wednesday. =) And i am expecting someone like Karkheng and Spikey to appear.

GD has something to tell

2011-03-21T08:39:00.000-07:00

And i am absolutely fine now, i see through many things as things grow complicatedly, at least i learned you see. I am very fond of one of my lecturer recently. He is a very special lecturer, yes its definitely him, he is Julian Teh, my Organization Behavior's lecturer. *Hurray* He is the best, i can say, the best lecturer i have ever met in UTAR for the past 2 years plus. (Included foundation year) If you have the chance please come to have a lecture in his class, he is fun, VERY FUN, considerate, VERY, kind, SUPER KIND, definitely a 101 % responsible lecturer. Not forget to mention, he is young too. Not because of this 'young' that makes me fond of him, but its his personality, he cares for his students the most, many efforts can be seen and i am sure you will agree with me when u get to know him. HEE. Three words- I LIKE HIM. In the sense of teacher-and-student relationships as he has his darling already. That is not the main point anyway. He praise my group members and ME that we look young today. *Loud laugh* Night ! Gonna have a sweet dream now. XD

Small notice: I found out when i turn around, there are many helping hands waving towards me, its me the one who decide whether we want help anot, i am very blessed to have many know-me well friends who willing to help when i am blocked temporarily. Thousand millions of 'Thank you' couldn't represent my appreciations to my great friends. I am truthfully happy for having all of you here with me. I am really surprised to know that even long-time-not-contacted friends supported me, even a message is enough. I will never let my best best people leaving me. I promised.

Words

2011-03-16T09:15:00.000-07:00

Few words to describe how i felt yesterday:

Disappointed
Started to lose patience
Annoyed
Tired (eyes pain seriously)

How i felt today:

This morning (Before presentation)-

Terrible
Nervous
Moody
Bit annoyed

Afternoon (after presentation)-

Totally bad mood
Totally annoyed

Evening (after a nap)-

Fresh
Still conflicting
Get more serious after receiving unexpected reply

Evening to night (after a walk in the park)-

Lot Better!
Relaxed
Hapee
Still having bit inner conflicts

Night (after a walk by the lake)-

Better and better
Relaxed & Hapee
Inner conflicts reduced
(After receiving another reply): OMGOSH!

Totally annoyed

Today, my mood is not in a good place yet there is somebody who still troubles me. You successfully annoyed and pissed me off, one thing to solve is forget and forgo. I know its hard to forget in a sudden, so forgive me for my unreasonable actions and attitude cause i dunno what i will act tomorrow or the day after and after. There is a needle inside me which is not regarding about me. I've a very deep memory on this, don try to repeat what i've been going through. Anyway, i would like to pay my appreciation to Mr. Kaofu, Mr. Phil, Mr. Spikey, and Ms. Karkheng for giving me everything i need when i am like this, dead fish situation. Besides, i really dislike to blog any negative news but its a way for me to release my frustration. Maybe i am wrong of being so right now, but i can't control it until the needle is pull out. Goodnight.

Jiyong aka G-Dragon is mine!

2011-03-13T05:14:00.000-07:00

This is his current look. With his senior named Seven. HEE. Take a real look and make sure u recognize him! Hee, i better say it politely, lets play a game, call 'Memory Game', see whether you remember a person's look by 3 pictures. Here is that person (below), his nickname is G-Dragon aka Mr. Kwon Ji Yong. =D The due time of this game is infinite cause i will ask you when i see you. HEE.

I am in the process of doing my assignmentsssss actually, spent 3 hours arranging it and now i just want to take a break of it. Posting is so much better than typing stuff at Microsoft Word. Hmm. Today is Sunday and i am not back to Kampar yet, still considering when to return. aiy. Many things to be done this week. This coming Wednesday is my busiest day, i have 2 assignments to pass up, one english quiz and one Presentation on that particular Wednesday. My second presentation for this semester. Hee. Anyway, your fren here has one good news to announce, not sure whether is good or bad, but i kinda anticipate it.. a LOT. Hee. I am one of the emcee for my morale campaign!! wOOhOO~ I never think of that when my pengerusi ask to choose which ajk i wan. But, on that day, one of my fren suggested me and Kenny to be the emcees. HEE. Why i like it? Not because i am good at anything but i failed once as one of the MC in a kindergarden graduation day. I was in form 3 or 4 if not mistaken, i failed and totally made the event terribly. Very bad day for everybody there, especially the head of that kindergarden who invited me and my brother as the MC. Argh, i don even wan to rmb, that is why i must succeed in the next event and maybe i will consider my path of road to it. HAHAa. I will stand from where i fell. Understand? HEE.

Gonna leave now, these are what i wanna update. Wish me luck and i will definitely do my best on everything i want to achieve. You too! Gambate~ Ahh tok about gambate, think of Japan's incident pulak, please let no more disaster fall on them and faster recover JAPAN! I wish to help. My Oguri Shun, are u ok?? =D

2011-03-05T07:09:00.000-08:00

These are what i am addicted to for the past 7 days. HYUN BIN and SECRET GARDEN!!

For the past whole week have been watching this drama call 'Secret Garden' acted by Hyun bin! So i had done nothing for these days, practically not nothing just abaikan many things, even two midterms within the week. I reduced my revision time and spent most of it with HyunBin (!) I am happy with it but the other side of me felt very disappointed of myself. But once i started a very awesome drama, i can't stop watching it. This drama is like so good for me, when i watched the first episode, i felt so happy and touched until i clap, laugh, and tears a bit because i have finally found a great drama after so long time. Thanks to Bigbang's Secret Garden parody, i get to know Secret Garden. KYAA! My Hyun BIN!!

Love love love.

Listening to all 'Secret Garden' OST everyday~ OOH yeah~

Gotta change my mixpod music to 'Secret Garden' d~

AHHH! I have finished watching it so will get back to my track now. More and more tasks are coming to me. Hwaiting!! Hyun Bin JangGGG!!!

Here i am to remind myself

2011-02-28T08:16:00.000-08:00

I need to make a little statement here. I need a lot of bravery cells to type it out cause i am required to do so and if not i won't improve. Its regarding to my academic results, I am committed to achieve 4.0 GPA this semester. I am serious, even long time ago i have this little dream but this time i must write it out to let people know bout it. Now i dare to do this because i really need to reach it, yeah its hard but i will take it as a big task and challenge. People can don't believe or even can laugh at this, but your actions will motivate me even more. (I am suppose to think like that). Anyway, recently, i read a great book borrowed by Karkheng, and it teaches me to announce to the public so that i have no way turning back. I doesn't want to stay with no improvements, so i am turning more aggressive because i have COMMITTED, meaning do what it takes to score 4.0. (Heartbeats) I can do it! (Self-motivation). PS: Once i decided my goals, i notice my attitude towards everything starts changing, i don't want miserable life later on. Say NOH to PTPTN!!

BIGBANG IS BACK! Emphasize emphasize their new songs !!
'Tonight' and 'Cafe' are my favorite.